Razzle's Checkup

Our boy has had his second lung x-ray checkup last week. He is still cancer-free (so far!) and his blood tests say he is not suffering kidney/liver damage from either the previous or current chemotherapy.  The current cancer drug they have him on (Chlorambucil [C] 4mg) -- which has to be handled with gloves it's so toxic, evidently has an off-label use for treatment of canine GERD.  He's has been absolutely frisky on this drug, frankly he's a happier, bouncier, more playful dog than he's ever been. The gastrointestinal upset that has been a part of his life as long as I've had him seem to have vanished.  Who knew that cancer treatment was the cure for the Permanently Upset Stomach?  Certainly first I've heard of such a thing, but, he's positively PUPPY-like these days. 

Goodbye, Mighty Mo --

We said good-bye to Mo today. He was twenty and a half. He had a wonderful life and was wonderfully loved.  Would we could guide the humans in our lives to the next step in their journey so gently.. Mo was a huge part of many lives and he will always be missed. He's gone home to play with Dad at last.

26 March 2011 Third Chemo Hits like Bricks

My sweet boy is in the hospital today. Four days post-third-chemo and he is in deep trouble. As before, he's anorexic, but this time, after a single meal on Wednesday, he refused to eat. I pushed some food down him, but even though he was still pretty chipper in terms of mood -- food was OFF the menu. By yesterday, he was pooing light brown water, eating nothing and by evening was spitting up bile (thought he might be vomiting, but the vet now says he wasn't).

So he had to stay overnight (nice Dr. Mullins snuggled with him most of the night -- what a STAR). They've given him IV fluids and a catheter. They've also provided a spectrum of anti-nausea and acid reducing medication, but he still wasn't having any of the food thing. They tried him early this morning with baby food (?!) and he evidently lapped it right up. However, it was only a very little bit. They are concerned about the "spitting up" of bile and though he hasn't had diarrhea for them, they are concerned about that as well. So he's spending the day under observation. They want to take an x-ray to rule out "Megaesophagus" where the esophagus is enlarged and food fails to make it to the tummy. The major symptom of this is regurgitation instead of actual vomiting (which is what he's doing). So today x-ray, observation and lots of good thoughts for my sweet boy ...

27 February Razzle's Big Secret

Okay, I think I’ve figured it out. Razzle’s Big Secret. The thing that made him whiny and needy, now is making him anorexic and picky. It’s gotten so bad even Gordon Ramsey would say he’d gone over the top with his food demands. But you see, it’s all clear when you think about it. There’s a simple explanation for everything. As soon as you grasp this single fact, everything falls into place.

Razzle’s pregnant. Now, before your go running off to hide under facts like “he’s a boy” and other such nonsense, I can prove it. Of course, I haven’t slept in a few days and it’s possible my judgment’s a little shaky, but all that aside, I can back this up.

Coming back from Chemo on Tuesday last, I expected his appetite to be down. We were given an anti-nausea medication and an antibiotic (his white count is still about a third what it should be). I was told that they agreed his tummy was upset as he’d been eating grass, so I was to switch from Pepcid to Prilosec. What the heck, I’m of the “if Benadryl can’t cure you, you’re dead” school of medicine so, what do I know from antacids?

Anyway, I figured he’d be like he was the first few days last time (and he’d had surgery then, remember?). He didn’t want to eat much more than a few spoonfuls of peanut butter and lap at coconut water (an electrolyte Godsend by the way, it’s sweet and when we won’t touch anything else, he’ll lap down the coconut water). He worked his way up slowly and there was always peanut butter to stop gap us.

Well, the rules have changed. Even with anti-nausea medication AND Prilosec AND Pepcid AND feeding him in bed, the anorexia came out for a full blown brass and drum parade. Now, he wouldn’t touch anything and by Wednesday, peanut butter was off the menu. (What am I going to do with a CASE of organic peanut butter?)

His newest trick, when he doesn’t want to eat something, is to spit it out, then go to stand by the door as if to say, “if you make me eat this, I’m leaving”. Usually, in the past, if I could get a little taste of a food onto his tongue, he would then eat; it’s clear his sense of smell has been knocked into another ball park. But that's not working anymore.

So, I dithered, and went through FOUR kinds of dry dog food, peanut butter, cottage cheese, an omelet, a poached egg, toast, rice, poached chicken … well, the cupboard. Wouldn’t touch a thing and by Thursday he was living at the front door and most of his nutrition was by taking one bite of about twenty things. To top it all off, he’d stand in front of the kitchen entry, acting hungry, sitting down, waiting, as if to say, “I’ve ordered from the menu, and I have to keep sending the plate back because it’s not right – ‘you have to get real!’” So, I’m racking my brains and the cupboard feeling like I’m caught in some bizarre Canine Kitchen Nightmare.

Then, in the back of the cupboard on Friday I saw it. “Canned Pumpkin”. Now, we’d tried pumpkin in the past, before the Osteo and he wasn’t a fan; I mean, he ate it, but he’d eat anything and he’d leave bits of it in the bowl and look up at me with that “you can do better, Mom”, look.

But he ate the pumpkin. Spoon after spoon of it. It was very fragrant and that made me think. I went back to the cupboard and had a good long stare-and-think. I’d been giving him things for an upset tummy, but if what is wrong is his ability to recognize food by scent, I needed a food with a scent so powerful it would overwhelm his newly oh-so-picky nose (Mo has NOTHING on Razzle these days) and not be rejected as inedible, or tasting like metal.

And right there, on the stuff-I-never-use part of the shelf, were sardines.

Yep, sardines. Well, I used to love them, but since going Vegan, haven’t touched them. So out with the King Oscar and –

This is when I figured it out. He’s pregnant. Because only irrational hormonal cravings could possibly make you want to eat (or even look at) canned pumpkin and sardines. Or sardines, cottage cheese and pumpkin. They all have to be separate in the bowl, but while I’m feeding him (all right, while I’m hand feeding him) there has to be a variety and that’s the one that works. For now. For this minute. For this weekend.

Since I’m reliably informed he’s not pregnant, I have the dog with the strangest eating habits and shiniest coat in four counties.

I can’t wait until he’s past the lowered neutrophil phase and we can go back to Darwin’s – that at least I know he’ll eat, even when he’s not feeling well.

So, we do this at least two more times and if his system can manage it, four. They had decided to move his chemo from every three weeks to every four, hoping his white count would bounce back so they can continue the treatment.

But I’m running to the loo with a lurching stomach after every meal (which he has one about five times a day since he’ll only eat a little at a time). Something has to give here, and I’m fairly sure it’s going to be my stomach!

As long as he’s eating something, anything, pregnant or not, we win! And as you can see, our other victory this week was a full-blown, all by ourself, roach.

Ah, relaxed at last.

HURRAH!!

19 February Clean and Sober & Snookered

Okay, for those of you who read the 15 February 2011 confessional, well, let's say if I had an delusions of intelligence, I've been disabused of them.

Thursday night, I was really, really tired and didn't notice I hadn't plugged in my cell phone (which I was using as an alarm clock for Razzle's meds). I feel asleep around 8:00 PM. Surprise, surprise, the miraculous Verizon paperweight ran out of juice, the upshot of which was that I missed his 11:00 PM Tramadol dose and ....

and ...

and ...

The fink slept through the night like a baby on bendryl. Not a peep, not a whimper. I wake up around 7:00 AM when his NEXT dose of Tramadol and Gabapentin was due and he was still sleeping like an innocent angel (which he is NEITHER). He got up out of bed without so much as stretch-and-rumble and ambled up to me for a pet. Had I been shoving pills down him for days, no, for MORE THAN a week, for no apparent reason? Really?

Yep.

Maybe I was wrong. Maybe it takes a while for the drugs to work out of his system. But there was only one way to know. I decided to take a risk. I'd make him go cold turkey.(Cruella has nothing on me!) Nothing. No drugs at all. No Tramadol, no Gabapentin, no Codeine, Nada. So we went for a walk (even had a tail wag), had our breakfast (okay, we had it in bed) and waited.

and waited ...

and waited ...

and ...

and ...

Nothing. Not a peep. The only drug he got yesterday was the Pepcid (as he is still trying to eat grass when we walk I know his tummy is upset). He's been more mobile, more engaged and DRINKING MORE WATER (he did not drink much water at all over the last couple weeks, which, for flushing out our insides is not a good sign). Dr. Neary suggested fresh ground ginger to settle his stomach and the long stares at his sides have stopped.

So I guess I should slap on the handcuffs and turn myself in for puppy pill pushing or abuse by medication or something. The only thing I know for sure is that I was utterly taken in by the random screaming, the prolonged wails and moans and the irrational clinging guilt my utterly rational mind refused to acknowledge I was capable of. I couldn't be taken in, after all. I'm too hard, too disciplined, too intellectual to turn into a blithering guilt ridden idiot whose soul is being torn out by the slightest cry from a dog ... right? Forget it, marshmallow insides, wimp, pushover, (a.k.a. pusher), you've been busted. You've been HAD. By a great big brown-eyed con-artist.

So. Here we are 36 hours after his last pain meds and he's sleeping like a baby, pooing up a storm, drinking like a fish and whizzing wonder pee.

Anyone know where I can get "Sucker" tattooed on my forehead ... cheap? Oh, I forgot, it's already there; it's a magic doggie tattoo only visible to canines and panhandlers.

My grandmother hand a word for it.

Snookered.

15 February 2011 -- Mom the Sucker (tee hee)

Okay. I chose the totally pathetic picture on purpose. I've been had. I've been had by my dog -- who turned me into his hook up (or his pusher, depending on your point of view). He had me flying to the hospital and badgering his doctors for new drugs, better drugs, drugs to stop the horrible, horrible pain. We had Tramadol, we had Neurontin, we had Codeine, we had Robaxin, we had ... you get the point. If three hours went by without something coated in peanut butter being served up to my desperately pained greyhound, it was that I accidentally fell asleep.

Right up until the minute I found out I'd been had. Now, don't get me wrong. It never occured to me that my slightly Munchausen prone dog was winding me up. After all, poor little baby had his leg hacked off and had chemicals pumped into him the next day -- but was bravely walking within hours of his surgery! He couldn't -- he wouldn't. (He did, and he was).

Now, I probably never would have discovered this. I would still be in the other room, where I've been most hours of most days holding his paw and cuddling him through painful screams as he cried and screamed until Mommy's full body massage made the pain go away (see where we're going here?)

But Mommy had not been sleeping very well (or, not to put too fine a point on it ... at all!). Being imperfect on her best day, ten days or so without more than about 3 hours sleep and Mommy ... well, Mommy snapped. The percipitating incident was after he'd demanded to be taken out no less than six times in the previous 20 minutes. I finally was able to serve him dinner and while I was doing that, I just put my hand on his head; you know, a nice, friendly scratch -- and he screamed blood murder. Seriously.

I lost it. Totally blithering idiot, walking the plank screaming lost it. I howled and screamed and cried ... until I noticed something ... he's stopped screaming and was watching me (the death threat uttered half way through my tirade seemed to shock him a bit). He very meekly walked over, ate his dinner like a lamb, then went to the bed he hand't been willing even to get up on because it didn't suit him, laid down and looked up at me with ... that look. You all know the one I mean. The one where you'd rather cut your heart out with a spork that deny him anything. And it was silent. Totally, utterly quiet. No whining, no screaming, nothing. Not for the next three hours (a world record). We went out for a walk without being begged and coaxed; we did our business in a minute; we took our pills without a bit of fuss. Finaly I realized -- I got it. I'd been had. Totally, completely, thoroughly had.

Not that he hasn't backslid. Pushing the limits, testing the waters. There's the odd scream in the middle of the night. The occasional whimper with pills or getting up after a nap ... and he's managed to make sure he still has his meals hand fed to him in bed (don't ask). But when the screaming whimpering whining performance doesn't ellicit an instant response, we give it over and turn back into a lamb. (Cora's going to kill me; he even refused during all this to walk on a leash for a day or so ... PUSHOVER). I've finally been able to do as the vets had insisted (why didn't they just TELL me I was being had??) and started weaning him off the pain medication. I've steadliy reduced his pain meds each day and AND the number of "incidents" (and their duration) has diminshed. I'm -- well, if I was delusional about having a modicum of intelligence, I've been disabused of the notion.

With the reduction in the pain meds he's more engaged and energetic. (Yes, he's trying a whole new book of tricks, but I've got my brain engaged before I react).

So, the next time someone tells you greyhounds are stupid --- they aren't. In fact, I'm pretty sure between him and Mo -- I'm the dim bulb in the room.

Our next chemo is Tuesday week. I'm hoping to have him off all the pain medications as soon as possible to ease the stress on his liver and kidneys -- I think the Robaxin is key; while I don't believe he's in acute postoperative pain, I'm pretty sure he is experiencing severe muscle spasms (I can feel those) from the drastic change in the muscles he's using. Frankly, this all started because every time he cried out he got a full body massage ... cause ... effect. I need a masseuse for him and a shrink for both of us -- how about couples therapy for a master and his human?

Did I flunk the chapter on Pavlov's dogs?

Yeah. The word sucker comes to mind.

What we do for love.

And I'd do it all over again.

8 February 2011 -- Wow! Two Lunches !!

We had our blood and urine tests yesterday, still awaiting results from oncology as to how we're doing.

However, we talked to Dr. Tripp about pain control and she agreed he needed something more (without saying Greyhounds are wimps about pain ... she said Greyhounds are wimps about pain .. and I'm not saying a thing). We added Gabepentin (Neurontin) and it's had a big impact. We slept through the night and after a kind of so-so attitude at breakfast, all of the sudden, he was in line for lunch and then in line for lunch again. Whoopee!! (Hey, it's the small victories that make my day; you should have heard me after adding coconut to his food turned him from toothpaste to bouncy poo in less than a day ... egad, 'bouncy poo' ... I'm actually waxing on and on about poo!!)

All in all, he seems much happier and calmer with the addition of this drug. We're keeping an eye on the Fentanyl patch as it will 'wear out' in the next day or so. He's still taking about 150mg Tramadol, so we haven't crossed the Rubicon quite yet. I'm planning on replacing the Fentanyl patch when it stops working. The problem is, due to differing metabolism in dogs, they don't know when that will be. It could be three days, it could be five days ... it could be they don't want to share that information as a panicked owner with a dog in pain in the middle of the night puts $300 in the till (tsk, tsk, that was a nasty, cynical shot).

We have an appointment Friday to take out the stitches. The wound is closing beautifully and as of this AM (8 days post-operative) his bruises are all but gone. He did have some negative skin reactions to everywhere the tape has been, but I've been staying after all those areas with baby wipes.

He has scraped himself a few times going up the stairs (we have a ramp to go down, but he REFUSES to go up it!) and he's almost fallen a couple times, the trick is trying to get him not to try too much, too fast.

Along those lines ... our BIG accomplishment yesterday was lifting our leg to pee -- it may have been a little shaky, it may not have been the most graceful thing I've ever seen, but he managed it -- out there on two pins, just like Mommy !

6 February 2011 -- Back to Zen Dog

He's much better this AM after a rocky 48 hours or so. The new Fentanyl patch has kicked in and he's much more comfortable. The problem is that his appetite is fairly depressed. He did eat a can of chicken this morning, and some freeze dried lamb treats, but he's really not interested in eating. HOWEVER, good pain control is what we wanted and having achieved that we're HAPPY campers!!

Also gave him a Pepcid which may have helped settle him as well as he's prone to upset tummy anyway. Our pee and poo are a little down as well, but hey, nothing in the front means far less out the back (that's all technical talk by the way, send the kiddies to their rooms!).

He's still eating the K9 Immunity, seems to like a the taste a lot. He's figured out that peanut butter may hide "mysterious nasty tasting little white things" so we've had to resort to pill pockets to get our pills down. We have an appointment with the oncologist tomorrow so hopefully we'll find out exactly where we are. To have an amputation and chemo the same week -- amazing he's made it with so few problems. We slept about five hours last night, which is a record for the last two weeks. And a mommy with more sleep is a lot more patient!

4 February 2011 -- Primum non nocere

I hope this picture doesn’t freak any of you out, but I can’t get over how beautifully he is healing – he’s going to have an “S” shaped scar, for “Superdog”, I am quite certain. His healing has been amazing in terms of the surgical site.

There have been a few other potholes in the road, however.

First and more importantly, Razzle is doing very well. That isn’t do say we haven’t had a few problems the last 36 hours. As the Fentanyl patch wore off? Down? Razzle became more restless, unable to be comfortable. I called last night (Thursday) and asked if we could increase his dose of Tramadol, as I felt he was having trouble managing his pain. We gave him an additional 25mg (he’s taking 100mg as the baseline dose) and that seemed to help and he slept mostly through the night with only a couple interruptions. But he was still clearly unhappy this morning and his temperature was fluctuating wildly. So, we flew off to see his surgeon, who looked him over and decided the drain to the amputation site and the rest of the patches and covers and bandages could come out and off. He was instantly relieved to have all that out and off and gone. A happy naked dog left the clinic.

He was fairly stable during the day, but clearly still not comfortable all the time. We’ve been eating well (cooking his Darwin’s with a couple eggs and some spinach or broccoli seems to be going happily gobbled down with peanut butter globs concealing drugs) and having really spectacular pees and poos (even bouncy poo thanks to adding coconut to every meal).

This evening, though while monitoring his temperature, it was up over 102.8, so we flew back to the vet. His muscles were tense, he was panting more and more heavily and he was in a lot of distress. Leaping to the most disastrous conclusion because that’s always such a productive habit (NOT), I was sure he was developing an infection from the Cisplantin therapy. Well, that what happens when you practice medicine without a license, you don’t have a clue what you’re talking about. Very nice vet, Alison R. at Animal Medical Center was quick to see he was in pain and our problem was the loss of the Fentanyl patch and he needed DRUGS! She gave him a shot, added codeine to his protocol and replaced his patch (HURRAH said Razzle). That was about an hour ago and he is sprawled on his bed zonked out of his mind and in dreamy happy vapor trail druggy land.

So, I learned a lot today. Hopefully, we can manage his pain more effectively going forward and I am going to be more proactive with ensuring his pain is managed before we worry about anything else.

Razzle has had lots of wonderful visitors the last few days, but has he goes into his “possible infection” phase from day 5 to day 10 of his chemotherapy, so the visitors will be cut down and we’ll try to keep his as quiet and germ free as we can.

I was thinking about pain tonight. Neither the ancient nor modern versions of the Hippocratic oath promises to “do no harm”. That's not surprising really. It is a standard that is impossible. For one thing, it could freeze a physician into not acting at all, as any action might cause possible harm and therefore to act could be to harm. Yet neither does either version of the Oath provide a requirement for the practitioner to “alleviate pain”. Yet, this is why the vast majority of us seek medical care of any kind. There are many admonitions in both versions of the oath, but they still fall short of the mark of what I think we expect or want from healing. The physicians best effort, to end suffering where they find it, to educate and to put the wants of the patient on an equal footing with the needs of the patient, might be a rational start.

While I may find how Razzle has faced his pain courageous, even inspiring, it is, at the core of it an experience neither he, nor any creature with access to modern medical care should ever have to endure. To be ill is stressful and frightening enough, pain is an additional torture that should never be added to it. He was not in acute distress and we were quickly able to resolve the dosage problems we had fallen into; but we all failed him in not being more constantly alert to this most paramount of needs – has his pain been alleviated?

Something well worth remembering, especially when we are talking about the inflicting of non-physical pain. There is neither a rational reason, nor, in the end, any excuse for inflicting pain of any kind, be it emotional, spiritual or physical. Those who find such actions entertaining, or amusing, or a part of their character for any reason should realize there is enough pain in the world without conjuring more; create and let loose that monster and it will destroy you.

2 February 2011 -- Our First "Meal"

Just had a soft egg with lots of butter and three Etta treats (liver) mixed in. We had our first MEAL!!! HUZZAH! He's been eating the Etta treats and the K9 Immunity Plus (you'd think he wouldn't want anything that was good for him, would you, but he also ate a Pet Tab!). He had not been interested at all in food, except for about 5 tablespoons of peanut butter during the night, the Etta treats and the K9 Immunity Plus. So, this egg is a BIG victory (one does not live by peanut butter alone -- well, most people don't).

We took a trip outside again (the Cisplatin treatment really has diuretic aftershock, he's not going as much as they said, which was every 2 hours, but he needs to go every 3 1/2) He just went right down the ramp (thanks Mikey and Brad) and out the down stairs (4) like a pro! Could NOT be more impressed.

Was concerned between 0300 and 0630 this AM that he was having trouble with the Fentanyl patch. I found that if I held him and massaged the muscles of his foreleg and head that he calmed down and wouldn't enter the crying out phase of the reaction. Since they tell me that it's like having a hangover, the only thing I could think to do was massage -- after all, what do you want when you have a hangover? Dark, quiet, understanding and a good massage to ease that headache (his muscles were in knots).

2 February 2011 -- Home at Last

Home at 7:00 PM last nite and happy as a clam so far and very tired. New twin beds on the floors and people to fuss over him is making him very happy. He hasn't eaten anything and only taken a few sips of coconut water, but we have made it outside twice for big wees and the second time he made it DOWN and OUTSIDE the front steps (shallow, but amazing!) His ability to adapt to three legs is astonishing not only me, but the surgeon, too. He came by as Razzle was being discharged and just couldn't get over how well he was doing.

And I always thought he was sweet but a little slow in the smarts area, unless he was stealing food! He is showing an astonishing depth of bravery and intelligence while still radiating the warmth for which he makes friends wherever he goes. Goes to show you; you think you KNOW animals -- or people, and you just don't!! (Ain't that what makes them so grand? THEM and US! Because after all everyone has done for us this week -- trust me, like Dr. Who says, people are just incredible too.)

Pretty soon he will be able to follow the band who made him their namesake today (pretty cool, huh? He's still astonished, Casen! and I am too!) in person!

It turned out to be a beautiful day after all; back to sleep with my baby ...

1 February 2011 -- Chemo

Well, Razzle Mr. Dazzle started having the preparatory work for the Cisplatin chemotherapy today. He had an IV line that was used for the preparatory treatment begin to bleed and they've had to take steps, including an anti-coagulant to stop the bleeding (wonder what the impact that drug will have on the chemo?). Once they have that under control he'll have the chemo later today. Ghastly stuff. A platinum based drug? Just what we all need -- more heavy metal. This is barbaric, you know? We do this to humans, too.

This has been the first setback they've had with him. The surgeon said he was doing very well after the surgery and had been eating and looking around and looking for love and attention (sly boy!). Dr. Tripp said this would set him down and back, making him feel blue and bad. They're looking for 4-6 treatments depending on how his kidneys handle the drug.

Baby is having a rotten day so far. The sun is out and the mountains are shining -- hopefully a sign of a beautiful day to come.

31 January 2011 -- Surgery Day

Hi, All,
First and foremost, thank all of you who posted, prayed and thought about Razzle this week. It is all appreciated and I KNOW it helped. To catch you all up:
After a lot of research, I decided to go ahead with amputation and chemotherapy. There were several considerations in my decision.

• About four inches of bone in his distal radial leg was involved; there was so much bone compromised a break was a matter of days, may be hours.

• Given how deeply the bone was involved; he would either be in excruciating pain from a break; or he would be on pain medication that made him unstable, and susceptible to a break.

• Given the severity of the bone involvement, but with the rest of his x-rays and tests clear, there were two options, amputation and euthanasia. I felt he had a better-than-average chance at a good result for the following reasons:

o He is young, calm and happens to LOVE the vet (any vet). Anywhere he goes where he gets food for no work and be petted for no reason is a GOOD place. (He’s made friends already). I thought for a long time he had Munchhausen’s.

o I work at home and though I am very busy, I can pay attention to his needs and be here for him during the day.

o I have a wonderful group of friends, neighbors and staff who can help with my work and his care and want very much to do so.

o If he has seven additional months after healing (a conservative estimate) that would be 8% of his life. If someone gave me a conservative estimate of 8% of my life with a terminal cancer diagnosis I’d be thrilled. So I’m thrilled for him.
Every time a dog goes through treatment, every owner that tries new diets, therapies and ideas and documents them, something is added to the science. While this may seem hard, I want the next greyhound owner, and the next and the next to benefit, if possible, from what we learn. Whether he lives, seven days, seven weeks, seven months or seven years, what we learn and what we do contributes to the overall knowledge of first treating, then hopefully beating this disease. We have a responsibility to try, and, by trying, to help make the first greyhound to beat this disease not a hope, but a reality (and I hope that it will be Razzle!)

The surgery went well. He had an initially poor reaction to the fentanyl patch, but seems to be doing much better. They said he was showing some interest in eating this evening (about 1800 PST) and is interested in people watching again (surprise, uh, as we all know, Not.)

Mom made him four dinners (tofu, broccoli, eggs, coconut, peanut butter, more peanut butter, coconut water, love, love and kisses) and took them over so he would have something from home and no meat to contaminate his mouth. He also had hard boiled eggs, his jar of peanut butter and K9 Immunity for treats). For now and ever carbs are off the menu.

He’ll be starting his first chemotherapy treatment (poor baby!) tomorrow. Cisplatin (Platinol®): This will be, I believe, five treatments. This is an in-hospital intensive chemotherapy treatment.

Everyone should have access to the Ohio State Osteosarcoma protocols at http://www.vet.ohio-state.edu/assets/pdf/hospital/bloodBank/wellness/research/BoneCancerinGreyhounds.pdf

To some of you, this may all seem very clinical and cold. I grew up on a farm and I’m the daughter of a physician. I know keeping a positive and happy outlook for Razzle is critical to his recovery. I also know that, as my Dad used to say, don’t borrow trouble. Worrying about what MIGHT happen, steals the joy from what IS happening. Razzle and I spent the weekend in bed together, eating bad food and snuggling. No matter what happens tomorrow, that’s the choice of yesterday that I hold on to --- if, and only if, bad times come. For now, I look forward in hope, for him and for holding him once again.

28 January 2011 X-rays and Blood Good now Oncoology .....

Razzle’s blood markers have come back negative and the x-rays of his other three legs and chest are clear. We have an oncology consult today with Animal Surgical Clinic of Seattle. My sainted cousin Michael sent one of his carpenters out yesterday to build Razzle a ramp down the front steps as he is already unable to put weight on the front leg. Though we have an anti-inflammatory and Tramadol, I’m trying to not drug him into insensibility as I’m concerned my darling, but always clumsy boy, might just fall over onto or against the compromised leg. He seems more puzzled right now that his leg seems to have stopped working than in pain.

For the immediate interim, I’m going to try to see if we can get him a tranquilizer to keep him calm (he has always had a severe overreaction to the idea of dinner and a hint of his leash rattling for a trip outside sends him, literally, into a tailspin) and a mood elevator to make sure he doesn’t get confused and depressed.

I appreciate everyone’s thoughts and support. I have made no decisions and will make none until I talk with the oncologist today. Everyone seems very familiar with and supportive of the Ohio State Protocols. Thanks you everyone, the thoughts, prayers and white light that seem to have had an incredible effect so far – keep sending them our way, please!

26 January 2011 -- My Sweet Razzle

Took him in for x-rays this morning. I can't stand being without him all day. Will there be other lesions in the other legs? Everyone has an opinion. The lists are all against amputation -- would I should be so lucky to have that option; on the other hand the infection and aftershock of such an operation can kill just as quickly. Just finished reading the blog on GPANW website of Aidan's passing by Lori Bigler -- it was heartbreaking -- 41 days; she only had 41 days from diagnosis to death.

This is so damned unfair. He doesn't deserve this; no one does, but certainly not the sweetest, happiest most lovable animal that ever walked this earth. Oh, my sweet boy, I just want you to be well and pain free, crawl under the covers with you and hide and hide and hide ...

24 January 2011 My sweet darling Greyhound ...

Some of you are old friends of Razzle’s and some of you have only met him a few times. I wanted you to know what is going on, as all of you know and love him. Yesterday, Razzle was diagnosed with osteosarcoma in his right foreleg. The bone is deeply involved.

The good news is his blood work returned today and he is otherwise in good shape, with none of the markers to indicate it has spread throughout his system, yet. We will be imaging the other three legs tomorrow, to see if he has developed lesions in any of the other three legs. His chest images were clear.

The medical among you know that the reason for this is that the only treatment for this disease is to amputate the leg at the shoulder and a course of chemotherapy. If the cancer is appearing in other limbs, the surgical option will not be followed, and he will not be with us very long at all, probably a few weeks at most.

The surgery is not to stem the course of the disease (this is not possible) but to alleviate pain and prevent the inevitable serious breaks that will occur in the weakened bone. While there is always hope, and I’ll do everything possible to try and effect a remission, the course of this cancer is always fatal; the survival times range from a minimum of 3-4 months, with amputation and chemotherapy up to a maximum of about 11 months.

I will be taking him to Moclips this weekend so he can enjoy one final, four-legged romp before he faces surgery, probably sometime next week.

I know you all wish him well and will keep you updated. He loves all of you, and I know you will send him good wishes and your best thoughts. If anyone wants to stop by for a hug and pet and a kiss, he’d love to see you